Lovesick
I used to wonder how it feels like. Now I know.
It was by accident (literally) I realized who was my special someone. After weeks of preparation (change my image: rebond hair, get contact lens, dress up more & wear more skirts & dresses), I decided it was time to let him know...
Carefully I wrote a letter expressing my heartfelt emotions. I handed him the letter together with an Xmas gift personally (1920hrs) on Xmas Day.
1 hour passed.
2 hours passed..
1 day (24 hours passed)... NO reply
By then I was quite certain I blew it AGAIN.
29 hours later, the reply came.
REJECTION.
Yes, I blew it. AGAIN.
Although this is the Nth time, I was still shocked... stunned. So initially I felt stunned, then sad. Now I can't feel a thing. Seems like I'm living in a dream...
There's a Chinese saying (roughly translated) "When man tries to date woman, he faces obstacles high like mountains but when woman tries to date man, the obstacle is merely sand"
Well, this Chinese saying is seriously flawed. It should be "When woman tries to date man, she faces obstacles high like mountains" *Sighz*
posted by angelblessings @ 20:47
11 comments
11 Comments:
if you're meant to be, you'll eventually be with that person. doesnt matter if your hair is in a mess or rebond, or if you wear geeky glasses or coloured lens. those are the outer things. what's most important that he sees your inner beauty.
i wish you love.
Dear e,
Thank You so much for your touching words. My tears are rolling down as I finish reading your comment. Gosh, there's a lump in my throat...
However it is always easier said than done: "sees ... inner beauty"
Although he has been my friend for about 2.5 years, it is only in the recent 6 months I get to know him (his character, his personality)through a series of events. Then I begin see the inner beauty in him.
Sadly it's a one-way traffic. Maybe he sees no inner beauty in me. Maybe I don't have any inner beauty to begin with... Don't worry, my self healing is in process but I'm not sure how long it'll take.
Bless you with love,
Angie
Hi Angie,
Sometimes the more you try to seek something, it will evade you...perhaps the time has not come for your special someone to be part of your life as yet...don't think you don't have any inner beauty...everyone has it just a matter of how much of it. Time will heal whatever hurt you are experiencing now. Be brave and all the best for the coming new year!
Regards
No inner beauty? Hell no! You're one of the nicest person on Earth.
Yes, it's easier said that done...especially when a jaded person like me is giving such comment. I'm jaded but I believe that everyone is destined to be with someone..just that some take a longer time to find each other.
I've had my fair share of rejections, but life goes on.
Hmm...I shld gather my nice, single male friends and bring you out for dinner with them. Who knows...your toes might start tingling again :)
Dear ger & e,
My sincere appreciation for your comforting words & again my tears are trickling down. I can feel the inner beauty from you.
Time will heal but how long is it will it take? I don't want to sit ard, do nothing & wait until one day I feel "okay". Will I ever even feel okay? Pardon me for being pessimistic.. I promise I will try means & ways to heal myself faster..
Er .. Happy New Year? How ironic.
hi angela,
at least u tried, and so no regrets rite. the rest, leave to fate lor. guess it'll hurt, b take that as part of healing....feel that healing has no target date, so dun force urself and go w the flow-lihua
Dear e,
Jaded? You are NOT jaded lah. You are animated, talented & good at comforting & sharing.
Thanks for your offer but please do NOT "gather" any male friend as I would like to settle my emotions properly with myself before anything..
Dear Sarah,
It is not easy to find the special someone. For me, I feel it's important to let him know as we've known each other for 2.5 years! There may not be enough sparks in the beginning but since now I'm sure, why not take initiative ya?
Thanks for sharing your experience, I'll take note.
Bless all to stay happy, healthy & safe from 2006 onwards,
Angela
Dear lihua,
U're right. Although I'm in depression now but I have no regrets.
I've been working on healing & seems like I'm beginning to "see some light"..
Inner beauty is deep within u, but fate plays a part.
To love someone; it don't happen by chance but for no reason.
Maybe the *ONE is yet to be found.
I appreciate u being frank but it hurts to tell u the truth as well.
I don't want to lose a friend, a friend i find so dear.
Dear hougangpark,
Suddenly I feel like I'm such a "tears-baby". I've flowed more tears in the past two weeks than in my entire life!
*Using tissue to dab my tears*
Very touched by your kind words...
You won't lose me as a friend lah, I'm just on a "heartache leave" remember? Will inform you when I resume "work" as your dear friend =)
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