My Love (Hi)Story [Part One]

Boy 1
Year: 1989
Place: Pri sch
Category: Crush/ Like

Those were the naive days.

Warning: Do NOT laugh.

I thought that if I simply LIKE someone, the someone would KNOW. I do NOT need to do or say anything. Dumb right? So I just like the guy lor. I never do or say anything. I just keep looking at him (with a silly smile on my face) when I have the chance. I thought the cupid would use the arrow & "shoot" the guy then he will start giving me flowers & stuff. Seriously, no kidding. Of course, NOTHING happened because I did not do anything other than having a liking feeling. Often I wonder if I will recognize him if I see him now. It has been 16 years!

Boy 2
Year: 1992
Place: Sec sch
Category: Crush/Secret admirer

So I know that nothing will happen if I do nothing. Yet I CHOOSE to do nothing because I had no confidence.

Boy 3, 4 & 5
Year: 1996~1997
Place: JC
Category: Crush/Secret admirer

Boy 3 was in the same ECA as me. Both Boy 4 & 5 were in the school canoe team. All 3 were good-looking. Boy 3 was academically smart & musically talented while Boy 4 & 5 were fit and sporty. Please refer to situation for "Boy 2" above. I did NOTHING and NOTHING happened but it was a happy feeling having someone to think about.

Boy 6
Year 1998
Place: Uni
Category: Crush/ Like

He was a committee member in the orientation camp I joined. Boyish looking with the "human touch" photography skills. Looks lovely when he smiles (who doesn't?). Tried to strike a conversation with him but somehow felt that he was not interested in me. Felt a little sad. I still have his name card...

Boy 7
Year: 1998
Place: Uni
Category: Like

After observing him for a few weeks, I decided to take action 'cos he never take any initiative. Just at the moment I met him in the canteen with his girlfriend! *Faint Cracking Sound* (1st heartache)They had knew each other since JC 1. Aiyoh, why for the few weeks he never say he got girlfriend when I was chatting with him?!

Boy 8
Year: 1999~2002
Place: Uni
Category: Like/ Secret admirer

My tutorial mate in year one uni. Handsome, smart & friendly but I found out that he had a girlfriend so I just admire from a distance lor... Kept in touch with him throughout my 2nd & 3rd years then one day he suddenly approached me...

"I tell you something, I like..."

My heart was beating extremely fast. When he finished his sentence, my heart stopped beating (for a few seconds).

He was interested in a girl in my study group. He noticed that I always had lunch with her & study together in the library with her. He asked if he could join us for lunch. Then I asked him about his girlfriend & he said they broke up already. He was a shy guy but when I said I will help him, he suddenly became talkative & asked about her character, her family, her hobbies, etc... *Faint Cracking Sound Again* (2nd heartache)

What to do? I guess this is Fate. I know both of them personally, suddenly I realize that they are very compatible. They would complement each other. I tried my best to "market" him to my study group gal but after a few meetings, she said that there was "no feel". She admits that he is handsome, smart & friendly but "no feel means no feel". Hiyah, I feel him but he no feel me. He feel her but she no feel him...

Boy 9
Year: 1999~2001
Place: Uni
Category: Like/ Secret admirer

Same ECA as me. See him at least once a week for ECA for 2 years. Liked his candid personality, talent in music & his "positive energy". You guessed it: he was already taken, so secretly admire lor.

Boy 10
Year: 1999~2002
Place: Uni
Category: Crush/ Secret admirer

Can be said to be "crush at first sight". Attends same lectures as me. I often talked about him with my study group gals & called him "Sunshine Boy". Drop dead good-looking with a sunshine smile that melts you... As I looked really nerdy then, I took no action & admire from far..

Boy 11
Year: 2001
Place: Uni
Category: Like

My project team member. Enjoy working with him. Had dinner with him on Valentine's Day. I gathered my courage and took action again. He immediately replied "Let's just be friends". *Stunned* (1st rejection) I felt sad. Well if you saw how I looked then... I don't blame him. It was a miracle I was not arrested by the Fashion Police!

To be continued...