Lovesick

I used to wonder how it feels like. Now I know.

It was by accident (literally) I realized who was my special someone. After weeks of preparation (change my image: rebond hair, get contact lens, dress up more & wear more skirts & dresses), I decided it was time to let him know...

Carefully I wrote a letter expressing my heartfelt emotions. I handed him the letter together with an Xmas gift personally (1920hrs) on Xmas Day.

1 hour passed.
2 hours passed..
1 day (24 hours passed)... NO reply

By then I was quite certain I blew it AGAIN.

29 hours later, the reply came.

REJECTION.
Yes, I blew it. AGAIN.

Although this is the Nth time, I was still shocked... stunned. So initially I felt stunned, then sad. Now I can't feel a thing. Seems like I'm living in a dream...

There's a Chinese saying (roughly translated) "When man tries to date woman, he faces obstacles high like mountains but when woman tries to date man, the obstacle is merely sand"

Well, this Chinese saying is seriously flawed. It should be "When woman tries to date man, she faces obstacles high like mountains" *Sighz*

Mutton Mentor

Care ~ Compassion ~ Concern ~ Cooking Skills ~ Giving ~ Life Experinces ~ Smile ~ A Good Laugh ..

My brother & I have learnt these from our dear "Mutton Mentor"

On 14 Dec 2005, Wednesday morning, she left us.

We lost her to Cancer. She had been fighting for one full year. It was a brave fight.

Strangely, I don't feel sad. One part of me felt relieved that she's freed from the pains of cancer, the other part strongly feels her presence. The words of Morrie Schwartz best express:

"As long as we can love each other, and remember the feeling of love we had, we can die without ever really going away. All the love you created is still there. All the memories are still there. You live on - in the hearts of everyone you have touched and nurtured while you were here"

"Death ends a life, not a relationship."

Puzzling Problem

Two months ago, I noticed "a small bubble" (most likely blister) at the bottom of my foot. I thought of letting it heal naturally. However 3 weeks ago the small bubble had grown to about the size of a green pea.. I was beginning to have problem walking (No pain).

I decided to burst it. Then I realized there were many small bubbles in the pea-sized bubble! About 3+ hours & lots of blood later (still no pain), I thought I had burst enough & let the wound heal. However 1 week later it grew back to the pea-sized bubble again!

Again, I decided to burst it. 5+ hours (& even more blood) later, again I felt that I can leave the wound to heal but during my Yoga I felt acute PAIN. Since then, I have problem walking, standing or doing anything that requires my foot to touch any flat surface.

I was in pain and went to see the (nearest) doctor. However he only gave me a cream to apply. I thought he was going to help me burst & "drain" out all the "bubbles" which I might not have burst "correctly" but he didn't. Almost 1 week has past. The cream is NO use. The PAIN is WORST.

Anyone has any idea or any doctor to recommend for such a puzzling (painful) problem?