Road To Recovery: Music Therapy

天空不要为我掉眼泪 - 陶晶莹
词：陈家丽作曲：翁孝良

我喜欢往高的地方飞
我的心 永远都跌不碎
我爱那种又浓又苦的咖啡
但是我还没有机会 替任何人伤悲

我喜欢往高的地方飞
我的心永远都跌不碎
我爱那种象徵爱情的玫瑰
但是我的另外一半 还不知道是谁

天空不要为我掉眼泪
看见好的男孩 我一定去追
天空不要为我掉眼泪
像我这样 也没有什么不对

天空不要为我掉眼泪
我的感觉太多 要好好准备
天空不要为我掉眼泪
看我的心 有没有人能猜得对

Rough English Translation
Song Title: Sky, Don't Drop Tears For Me
Singer: Matilda Tao

I like to fly towards high places
My heart can fall but can never be shattered
I love the strong & bitter kind of coffee
But I don't have a chance yet, to feel sadness for anyone

I like to fly towards high places
My heart can fall but can never be shattered
I love roses that are like love
But my other half, I still don't know who

Sky, don't drop tears for me
When I see a good guy, I'll definitely chase
Sky, don't cry for me
As I am, there's nothing wrong

Sky, don't drop tears for me
I have too much feelings, I need to better prepare myself
Sky, don't drop tears for me
See if anyone, can guess my heart correctly

Dealing With Depression

At first I tried to ignore all feelings. Kept myself busy with work, tasks.. I went about my daily life in a daze. Void of all feelings, like a zombie. I was lost.

However there were still times when I was alone. Mentally, my thoughts began: Am I not worthy? Do I look so bad? Why, despite all my sincere efforts, I always fail? Emotionally, the feelings came: I felt lousy, VERY LOUSY. My eyes start to swell, I can't see clearly.

I have reached depression. I started to cry. Physically, there are strange uncomfortable feelings in my heart. Sad, I only have sad thoughts, I feel sad, I look sad, I AM SAD. I remember from TV, experts say: "You need to visit & revisit your pain again & again until you can accept it. Don't fight it, don't deny it. Feel the full force of the pain, then only you can move on. Then you can begin to heal."

Yes, I can feel the pain but I don't know if it is the full force.
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Can I accept it?
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Whatever that does not break me, makes me stronger.
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Meanwhile, my self-therapy continues...